To whom it may concern

I'm not too sure how this is supposed to go.
But there has to be millions of you out there.
I know about your pain.
The pain of never being able to tell the truth a 100%
I know you may think you honesty may exspose weakness.
But someone once told me that in order to find what you need,
You have to venture farther than just the hall outside your room.
Its easier to hate than find something you love,

I do agree with this.

But love is the only thing worth that kind of energy.
It may seem like you are screaming in a room full of people who dont care.
Please know that someone does and they are out there.
You just need to open you eyes and look.
I know it gets hard sometimes,

Like when its 3 am on a wends day
you still have not succeeded in drinking yourself to sleep,
and all you can think about it what went wrong.

Then after a while you decide to just not try,
close your eyes grint your teeth and wait till its over.

But unfortunately you'll fall asleep.
and wake up days months years later
blinded by the lights of an ER.
Having your blood stolen and choking on the
Char cole filled tube in your throat.

Or lost in the darkness of a "not too sure where i am" kind of party.
Looking for your car keys,
Both places where a person should never be.

Explination unnecessary

I want a new kind of love.
Not the flowers and candy,
Teddy bears and dancing
kind of love.

But I need the hold my breath,
until I can breathe you.
Stay up past one thinking of you,
Sleep late the next day,
because I dreamt of you
Kind.

The clasp your hand
Because I cant stand to do otherwise.
Not the hold your hand to maintain my cool
Kind.

Or even the tell you I love you
because you need to hear it.
But the say I love you because my hear
SCREAMS it.
Walk you home in the rain
when I can not refrain from being near you.
Kind of Love.

The I can’t think or speak without-
your name resounding inside my head.
The I can’t sleep without you snoring next to me,
shut off the alarm and lie about the time,
to keep you here a moment longer.
Kind.

Not the Valentine card sending,
but the just because its Wednesday.
The I love you more today than yesterday.
Scratching out X’s and O’s,
Because my words can not express
what heaven only knows.
Kind.

Nothing less than marriage
is good enough.
The I don’t want to grow old together
But spend forever together.

The everything I never knew
I always wanted.
Kind of Love.